Really ask yourself, are you addicted to pain? Do you keep things that trigger a painful memory? Do you listen to music that gives you the painful feeling of an unfilled love? Do you talk and think about things that cause pain?
Sometimes feeling pain is better than feeling nothing at all. This is actually the primary reason why humans naturally want to engage in activities, conversations, and thoughts to experience the feeling of something. Just like there is an addiction for all things that give you an extreme sense of pleasure, the feeling of pain is just as addicting.
Observe this in yourself, your choices, your actions, and your thoughts. And really ask yourself are you addicted to pain? Like with any addiction, the first step is admitting you have one. This gives you the ability to take the wheel of your choices instead of letting your addictions take you over.
Feeling sorry for yourself is one of the most common forms of tapping into the deepest feeling of pain. This ties into you playing the victim of your life, thinking and talking about how he did this or that to you. poor you or whatever. Stop playing the victim, this is what is holding you back.
It is absolutely fine to want to feel pain, it is not a bad thing at all. Pain is part of life and comes and goes in waves. You will get your dose just by being human. If you do seek more of it to feel 'alive' then be aware that you are doing it. For example, if you are yearning to feel pain, then put on an Adel song, feel it out.
When life naturally gives you a painful situation allow yourself to feel it, just like you did when you listened to that Adel song. When it is over, let it go. If you play it non-stop to 'feel' you will get caught in the pain addiction cycle.
The key is not to let your desire to feel the pain to cause you to stay in a permeate state of seeking it.
Remember you will get your dose just from being human. Allow Yourself To Feel Pain When It Comes.
Pain is part of joy, they are intertwined. We often only want to feel the joy, but it is the pain that carves a deeper place for the joy to live. The deeper the pain, the more joy will be filled. I invite pain as a natural part of joy. When it can not be avoided, like when losing the one you love - pain is looked as a bad thing. Do not label it as bad. Allow yourself to feel it. Sit still with it and observe it. Allow it to create space for the joy that will soon fill you up again. Remember that it is always darkest before the dawn. And even after the light comes, there will be darkness again - and it too shall pass. Do not be swayed by the darkness and light, it is part of everyone's life. Smile through your pain and know that the light will come soon.